Awaiting the answers...

So many questions with out answers. Searching for some one to answer them. I have asked, emailed and left with disappointment. When your leadership fails you, where do you turn. In all actuality, at this point its the principle of the matter.

Waiting for answers, looking for direction.

The reasoning...

I embarked on this "Journey without college" hoping for something to hit me. Something to move me. Something to tough me and make me feel passion for something. Volunteering didn't seem to work out. I looked and asked and know one really seemed that interested. I guess thats a closed door. I'm trying to learn when to realized when something is a close door. FRUSTRATING! I have decided to take this time and research different majors and jobs. Every time I seem to find a major I am interested in, it isnt offered in this area. We are definitely not in the position to move right now. So that means I am limited to what is offered around me.

Criminal Psychology with a minor in Linguistics would be my ideal major. That would mean Denver for us. I just don't think that is going to happen.

Ill have to figure something out here.... Keep looking. Keep search.

The reasoning behind this decision being so hard is I do not just want a job. I want to make a difference. I want to be somebody not just everybody. I want to make an impact some where some how. Is that such a bad thing? I just don't think social work is for me any more. After doing some searching, it is a great degree but i dont think i could sleep at night knowing that i would just help people in bad situations instead of preventing it.

I guess that means something in the criminal justice field. I want something federal though. Which is hard core to get into....


Praying for something to help me stand apart.


I have a feeling im getting closer to what i want though!! :) thats always a good set! :)